So I know I haven’t been on in ages in tumblr time but I haven’t had the time nor the guts to come on here and admit that I had abandoned my skinny mind thoughts things whatever you want to call it. Well today I came on here to just vent cause I really can’t do it on my personal tumblr because the people that I would like to vent about are following me. So anyways I just returned from a rather boring but well worth the wile trip to florida which none of my 16 yes 16 followers really care about. But now I will really vent my problems…….

So ever since the beginning of this past school year I have been feeling myself slip out of the friendship I have with my best friends. One of them really just got on my nerves this year and I believe she just talks about me to atleast one of my other best friends which is kinda hurtful. I just feel like I can’t trust her or talk to her about anything. Maybe it is just because I did become friends with other people. Maybe it is just the other people I really shouldn’t trust. Whatever. With another best friend I have grown apart from because I really haven’t been a great friend to him. Like a few weeks back I kind of told his gf’s best friend about something and she told the gf. Even though my friend didn’t tell me himself it was kind of something about his “affair.” But in all honesty I am really genuinely sorry for doing that and thankfully he forgave me but I still feel bad about it. But on the good side of things I haven’t told anyone but my other best friend the secrets of his relationship that he has told me. I really just want him to trust me because I sincerely love him and would do anything for him. As much as I say that my one friend is my best it really isn’t true. If I ever really had to rate them it would be Him and my friend from another town then her…..

well I will continue this another day because I have to go watch project runway and hopefully get some thinspo back into me 

toodleloo!!! :)